A new Journey for me!

So, today marks step one in a lifetime of changes for me.

 As most of you know, im a big girl. Being small is something Ive NEVER experienced. And with it being 2011 there's ways to help that process along. Ive decided to go through with Gastric Bypass surgery and couldn't be happier about it. I know many success stories and I hope to be one as well. I know many people do not agree with this drastic measure, but most of those people have also never battled obesity. 

 Ive been overweight since infancy really. I have not one photo where I wasn't overweight. So for the chance for something like this to help me achieve what most people take for granted in life, is awesome for me. Ive been the child that skipped gym as to not get dressed with the other girls. The girl that sits at the school dances because no one would ask. I cant say I was teased much because that may have happened once until I put them in their place....lol. But I knew the 'looks'. A REAL eye opener was going to Portugal. A completely new country and I can honestly say I was the largest person there. Here in America I'm small compared to many. But I felt the stares there as if I were a freak show.

Now that my family is rounded out, I can take the time for my own health. Today was step one. I had my consult with the surgeon and nutritionist. But this will be a long process. One that Id like to share with you all. Both for the support and encouragement but also, possibly to help someone else feeling as I now do. I will be seeing my PCP once a month until June for weight management. I have a few tests to undergo by June as well and once all is done, I go in once more in June/July for a meeting with the surgeon and get a date for the surgery! 

I know A LOT of you think this is 'cheating' or 'taking the easy way out', I even may have thought that myself at one point, but after today, I know its just as much work as without the surgery. Its a tool, yes, but by no means a cure. Ill have to change my eating, and excersize like any other person losing weight through any other method. But I KNOW this is the way that will help me best. 

So now, when I look in the mirror, I see what I know what will be. I see me a year from now. Being able to take the stairs without getting winded. Or playing with my children on the floor and getting up easily. I dont know how I came to be where Im at today. But I KNOW how Ill come to be tomorrow. So heres to the future and my health and better times with my family! I will update you all as I go along this journey. 

<3 you all!

 ~J~